tylerh91
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Post by tylerh91 on Oct 27, 2006 21:03:18 GMT -5
Sometimes I wish I'd never come out as being bi. It's good because, you know, i can actually be myself for once, but then again, I'm constantly getting more, and more crap from people because "being gay is so wrong" and i really couldn't take it any more. I started cutting again about a week ago and i can't stop because it DOES Make me feel better...but it's also starting to not only scare my friends, but me, because last night I couldn't get a cut to stop bleeding, and I was afraid that i might have gone into too deep and i thought "oh my god, i might actually die" and eventually i got it to stop. But now im afraid that the next time a do cut, i might actually die. I wanna stop so bad but i can't. it's worse than when i was addicted to cigarettes.
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Oct 27, 2006 21:48:59 GMT -5
First things first. You do not have to be ashamed of who or what you are. If your bisexual then you should be proud of that and just ignore the losers who say that being gay is so wrong. In my school we have a GSA club (Gay-Straight Alliance) where everyone can be open about their sexualities without descrimination. If you go to school (I don't know your age) then see if they have a club like that. I am straight but I have a high respect for gays and bisexuals. I think everyones equal no matter what or who they like. I hate the kinds of people who will say "You're so gay" or "All gays are sinners" or even "Gays are signs of the devil." because they are no such thing. Gay/Bi is not an insult nor a sign of the devil. The only people who care about other peoples love lifes are losers who are bored with their own lame lives so dissing other people's lives keeps them entertained. Just ignore them and embrace your sexuality. And remember that there is nothing wrong with being gay/bi.
Next I understand what your going through with the cutting. I have cut many many times before and I've been hiding it from my friends. I've started to come out and tell them but back on subject. I won't tell you that it's a discusting thing to do or that it doesn't make you feel better at all because I'd be lieing through my teeth. I think that cutting is very relaxing for me but I also no that it's not a good thing to do. Not only does it leaves scars that you will carry with you for the rest of your life but you also hurt the people who care about you. Self harm is not the best way to handle things. Try crying instead. I know that most people don't like to cry but it's a good thing to do and will make you feel better afterwards. Or if you like music blast you music while laying down. I find that it helps to calm me down when I'm low enough to want to cut. You can also use a rubber band around your wrist. Just snap it against your wrist (lightly or hard) and stop when your desire to cut has vanished. That is a very effective way to help stop.
I hope that some of this has helped you and just remember that you have a lot of people who care about you and hate to see you hurt yourself. Good Luck!
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Post by tylerh91 on Oct 27, 2006 22:29:58 GMT -5
Unfortunantly, my school doesn't have a GSA (though i wish it did...then again E High does suck) and im not ashamed of being bi, i just sometimes wish i hadn't come FULLY out. I tried the blasting the music thing, and seemed to help a little, and im feeling better so thanks Dark Angel
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