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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Nov 19, 2006 19:55:13 GMT -5
yeah that's how I feel right now. I feel that I'm pathetic. Pathetic for holding onto something that's not coming back. For holding onto my life line, hoping that he would come back and get my broken heart beating again. It's been two days since my heart was ripped out of me and torn into little pieces, and yet I still want him back. Why? Am I that desperate for love? Am I that stupid to think that he'll come back to me? I try and tell myself that I'm fine, but I know I'm not. No matter how many times I carve that one word into my skin I know it's just a word. No matter how many times I see that blood fall slowly off my wrist I know that won't bring him back. So why do I do it? I hate life...nothing that's good ever stays... Edit- I have added a trig subject on your post, as this may upset some people. Sparkle.
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Post by Will on Nov 20, 2006 2:19:07 GMT -5
All I can say is, I know how you feel.
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Post by Alcohol4ever on Nov 20, 2006 7:02:12 GMT -5
^^ Same, but hun, try not to self-harm, self-harming wont bring him back obviously, I know it's hard to stop, but if you try hard, then you can stop. Don't let him get to you, most guys are jerks. Hun I know you can do this. I HAVE FAITH IN YOU!
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Nov 20, 2006 17:35:22 GMT -5
Yeah I know it's stupid and I should stop. I always end up regretting it the next day but when I'm down I just keep thinking that it's the only way to calm me down.
I'm getting better now. I'm almost all over him but I still have some feelings for him and I know I will for a little while but I'm almost over him. I still want him to be my friend though because he's a really nice guy.
Oh and sorry I didn't put the [may trig] thing. I was depressed and was writing it just to get some feelings out. I wasn't really paying attention to it I needed to put it up or not. >.<
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Post by lilcrazygirl on Nov 22, 2006 22:24:21 GMT -5
Well it's great that your getting better. Yay!!! Well it's also great that you still want to be friends with him, usually if you're friends it saves you and you get better(atleast thats what happened to me.)
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Nov 25, 2006 16:20:30 GMT -5
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Feb 18, 2007 9:30:40 GMT -5
same with everyone ^^^^ ive been through it 6 times now with the same guy... You gonna always want him back and its gonna kill you but u got to keep going even though its hard. sweetie... i know how u feel i mean each time me and max break up i cant go out with anyone else without feeling guilty cuz im in love with someone else and the pain keeps coming back BUT just face the day with big smile and whatever happens happens for a reason.. its suppose to make you stronger
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