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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Dec 5, 2006 22:21:21 GMT -5
I'm not motivated to go on anymore. There's nothing in my life I want to live for. People screw me over no matter how hard I try to be nice to them. What did I do to deserve this? I get good grades, I have great friends, and then this year it's all been a whole pile of shit dropped on me (excuse the language). I hate it and I'm so close to going over the edge and ending it all.
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Post by Viper on Dec 5, 2006 23:20:26 GMT -5
Dont do that! Think of all the good things that have happened to you. You still have alot of things going for you! And we all like you hear and would never want to see anything whatsoever happen to you!
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Dec 6, 2006 21:17:11 GMT -5
but life doesn't seem worth living anymore. I cry myself to sleep everynight, I end up cutting a lot. Nobody seems to care. Two days ago I was crying on my way to school and my mum (who was sitting right next to me) or my sister didn't even know. I can cry right here with my dad, and three brothers in the room and no one will know or care. I hate it. I hate life...
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Post by Viper on Dec 7, 2006 1:22:34 GMT -5
We all hate life sometime but it will get better much better! And I care. You are a very very good and kind person!
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Dec 7, 2006 14:52:38 GMT -5
I care, please don't hurt yourself. Why don't they notice? Whats going on thats making you so upset?
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Dec 7, 2006 22:53:54 GMT -5
I don't know why they don't notice. They never seem to notice when I'm upset. They always notice when I'm happy or mad. They usually only yell at me.
I don't know what was making me so upset. I guess I've been under a lot of stress. My family doesn't really listen to me (as you've seen from above), my friend is really depressed right now (her family's falling apart basically) and she's told me she wants to die, whenever I look at myself in the mirror I always see something wrong with me, schools and overload at the moment.
I'm in a better mood today except for my friend. She broke down today during school so every chance I got I gave her a shoulder to cry on but I made her smile later during the day. Anyway, I didn't hurt myself. I have mood swings sometimes which is kind of scary. I can go from happy to sad to angry.....and that's not on my period. >.>
I want to thank you guys. I didn't think anyone would reply at the time and just the replies made me a little happier.
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Post by ¤Teen Vibe¤ on Dec 7, 2006 23:27:53 GMT -5
It sounds to me like they aren't sure how to help you when you are upset so they think the best thing to do is to let you sort it out yourself. It doesn't mean that they don't care or don't love you they just don't know what to do. Have you ever tried sitting down with them and telling them you are upset instead of hoping they notice? They could be waiting for you to come to them. Parents usually feel like the better thing to do is to wait for their children to come to them and not invade them with questions. I can understand how a parent would feel this way because lets face it, when they do ask questions, we often give them the cold shoulder even though we want to tell them whats going on.
I'm sorry to hear about your friend, it sounds like shes in a tough position right now and you are a great friend for being there for her. However remember to never give more then you have. If you are overwhelmed with whats going on in your friends life and feel like someone needs to know, tell someone so she can get the help she needs. I'm not saying don't be there for her, just look out for yourself because you are number 1. Like I said, Never give out more then you have.
A lot of people are stressed out with school, exams, report cards etc its normal! If you're having a really tough time try and allot yourself some extra time to brush up on certain subjects or get more help from the teachers. At my college we have study groups, these can help a bunch if you aren't sure whats going on. Sometimes the students themselves can explain things better then teachers.
I've seen your pictures and I can't find one thing that I could say isn't "up to par" but it is like almost every other girl in this world they see imperfections that no one else would ever see. Next time you look in the mirror don't think about the things you don't like think about the things you do like. Thinking positive will change your mood for the rest of the day, It takes some work to get into the habit. Don't say theres nothing you don't like about yourself! Find something that you like and admire it. Everyone is beautiful in their own ways, EVEN YOU!. Theres absolutely nothing wrong with the way you look.
If you feel your mood swings are more then just a normal emotional roller coaster (which we all have at times) then talk to your doctor about it. These mood swings could be happening for a number of reasons hormones, stress, anxiety, depression etc.. Let your doctor know whats up so he can tell you whats going on, once you find out you can work on helping you control your mood swings instead of just living with them.
Always remember that no matter what there will always be a way to get around things to make things better and when your unhappy and depressed it can be EXTREMELY hard to see that but it is true, make a commitment to yourself to change your mood, lifestyle or anything else you want to change and it can happen if you put your heart into it. I wish you the best of luck, Message me anytime!
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Dec 9, 2006 15:27:03 GMT -5
I don't know...they could be doing that but it seems like my family doesn't notice at all when I'm sad. I try to hide my emotions because that's just how I am. I don't like crying infront of people but sometimes I do. My friends will notice in a heartbeat but my family's oblivious to it.
My friend is doing a little better. Her brother's out of the hospital but I don't know about anything else at the moment. She's getting into more fights at school though. =/
I know I'm fine and that there's nothing really wrong with my body but it's how any teenage girl feels. Most envy another girls body part whether it be the stomach, face, eyes, ect. I'm not doing anything about it because I know deep down that I look good.
But thanks Teen Vibe and Viper for your help. I'll be sure to take your advise.
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Dec 10, 2006 16:51:55 GMT -5
Friends and family are different. You open to your friends more so then your family most of the time right? This makes it more comfortable for friends to come in and comfort you because they feel like its okay, but your parents may not feel that way.
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Post by ziggy on Dec 16, 2006 23:44:42 GMT -5
I don't know...they could be doing that but it seems like my family doesn't notice at all when I'm sad. I try to hide my emotions because that's just how I am. I don't like crying infront of people but sometimes I do. My friends will notice in a heartbeat but my family's oblivious to it. My friend is doing a little better. Her brother's out of the hospital but I don't know about anything else at the moment. She's getting into more fights at school though. =/ I know I'm fine and that there's nothing really wrong with my body but it's how any teenage girl feels. Most envy another girls body part whether it be the stomach, face, eyes, ect. I'm not doing anything about it because I know deep down that I look good. But thanks Teen Vibe and Viper for your help. I'll be sure to take your advise. What I did was I visited a psychologists three days a week and started to mentally train my self to ignor the mean things in life, I am a bit sensative, I mean I drove a girl around town when I found her crying after she got sumped, I baught her icecream and talked to her. I really think there should be more people around to do the things I can do, sombody to talk to can do a lot of things a pill cant.
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Post by helpgirl on Dec 30, 2006 17:28:06 GMT -5
i vist a psychologist every friday it helps alot
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