Erla
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Post by Erla on Mar 4, 2007 23:50:58 GMT -5
Okay, the thing is, I've been SH-ing for about 3 years and I'm trying to stop. I haven't done it very often for the last 5 months cause I finally found happiness. When I met my boyfriend and we started dating, I was so happy for the first few weeks that I just didn't feel the need to SH. But then after a bit, the feeling started coming back and by now, it's really difficult for me to control it. My bf wants me to stop this completely, and he has actually threatened that if I do it, he will too. And I really don't want that. I've cut twice since he said that and he hasn't acted on it but he almost did...I begged him not to do it, actually. I know that he feels really bad when I do this and he's just scared for me, but this isn't exactly easy. But I feel so stupid when I get depressed because I feel like I have no reason to be depressed. I have a wonderful boyfriend and we love each other very much, but sometimes I just break down. And it's so stupid. There's nothing wrong with my life....
If anyone has any ideas about why I'm like this, or how I can get control over it, please respond. And any advice on what I can do when I get the feeling to cut...
Thank you
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Mar 5, 2007 11:08:20 GMT -5
For 3 years SH has been your way of dealing with things. You won't be able to change that over night. Its wonderful that you were able to stop for that time. I don't think its fair for your boyfriend to threaten to do it as well. Its not very healthy. You say you know nothings wrong in your life right now but you still have to do it, correct? That shows me that you need to see someone about it, if you are already then you should see someone else. If your boyfriend wants to stop you so bad I think it would be a better idea if you tell him when you get the urges so he can watch you, like a hawk, so you don't do it. Then you are working together to change it instead of making it worse by BOTH of you doing it. He could take you out somewhere, hold your hands, distract you etc. to get you to stop.
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Post by Erla on Mar 5, 2007 14:17:23 GMT -5
He just said it because he's scared. He really doesn't want me to do it. He used to cut, actually, but stopped a long time ago... The thing is he can't always be here when I get this feeling. He would if he could, but like things are now, he can't. I am seeing a psychiatrist, have been for about a year....it's nice to talk to him, but well...it's not helping that much :S
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Post by WilD CherrY on Mar 6, 2007 11:45:03 GMT -5
You call him too if hes not around right how did he stop? maybe u can try the same thing
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Post by Erla on Mar 6, 2007 12:21:50 GMT -5
Sometimes I call him...I just don't want to call him when I know I won't be able to do anything but cry on the phone....I hate crying in front of people or on the phone with people.... I don't know how he stopped, actually....I could ask him
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Post by Firey Shades Of Blue on Mar 6, 2007 12:30:14 GMT -5
i dont think ur bf would mind if u cried he is ur bf.
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Post by Erla on Mar 6, 2007 18:31:14 GMT -5
I know he doesn't mind. The problem isn't him, it's me. I just hate crying in front of people, no matter who it is. I have broken down in front of him though and he was so sweet. He just held me while I cried and when I was calming down he got me to smile ^_^ (he called me four-eyes not cause I have glasses, I have a bridge piercing...it got me to smile )
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