Post by dazedandconfused on Sept 29, 2006 11:51:22 GMT -5
Right now I'm having a relationship w/one of my teachers. I know this is not right, not just because he's my teacher, but also because he's married, but i don't know what i can do about this.
Since 5th grade, I've been having problems with my family. becoz my dad got sick, and my mom was really sad at that time. So I don't have anyone to talk to. Beside, Every time I did something wrong, they were always angry of me even if I tried my best to do what they want. However, after than I always consider myself as "useless" until I met the teacher. He's always there for me, which made us really close and in about a year I became his "girlfriend"
My life changed after then. I tried to focus my life on school work and active on organizations, after a while I've had a lot of friends and they always respect my work in school and on the events that I handle with my organization. Now, we've gone out for more than one year, and until now, no one knows anything about us and we don't want anyone to know anything about it, coz we think that nobody could understand what we feel.
My parents know that i'm close to him but they never knew what kind of "friendship" we have. They don't even like him to be my friend, b'coz of racial problem [I'm Chinese and he's Indonesian], but I dont care much about it, coz, as I said before, I never talk to them much. Every time I talk to them about anything, like school, they'll try to sort it out their way, which make me feel uncomfortable. But every time I told them i don't like it if they keep calling my principal/friends, they acted like they know everything and they'd end up being mad at me.
I knew his family, and I think why he wants to have an affair with me is because his wife weren't always there for him, like when he come back from his activities at night, he would call me bcoz his wife's already asleep (at 10 pm, yeah!), and we would talk about any problems that we may had. and they often had fights over small problems.
Although I'm happy to have him, but every night I cried, when I think of how we could never be together. it hurts thinkin' of how he'd be spending his life with someone other than me. But I always try to be strong. I don't want him to know about this, coz if i tell him about this, he'll ask me to end this relationship, coz he doesn't want to hurt me. But I know, if I lose him I will go back to my pessimist behavior and may end up into something worse, like drugs or suicide.
So I just wanna share my feelings here and I want to know what people think about us; coz i know, someday, people will find out about this... And at that time I don't know what I'm gonna do...
Since 5th grade, I've been having problems with my family. becoz my dad got sick, and my mom was really sad at that time. So I don't have anyone to talk to. Beside, Every time I did something wrong, they were always angry of me even if I tried my best to do what they want. However, after than I always consider myself as "useless" until I met the teacher. He's always there for me, which made us really close and in about a year I became his "girlfriend"
My life changed after then. I tried to focus my life on school work and active on organizations, after a while I've had a lot of friends and they always respect my work in school and on the events that I handle with my organization. Now, we've gone out for more than one year, and until now, no one knows anything about us and we don't want anyone to know anything about it, coz we think that nobody could understand what we feel.
My parents know that i'm close to him but they never knew what kind of "friendship" we have. They don't even like him to be my friend, b'coz of racial problem [I'm Chinese and he's Indonesian], but I dont care much about it, coz, as I said before, I never talk to them much. Every time I talk to them about anything, like school, they'll try to sort it out their way, which make me feel uncomfortable. But every time I told them i don't like it if they keep calling my principal/friends, they acted like they know everything and they'd end up being mad at me.
I knew his family, and I think why he wants to have an affair with me is because his wife weren't always there for him, like when he come back from his activities at night, he would call me bcoz his wife's already asleep (at 10 pm, yeah!), and we would talk about any problems that we may had. and they often had fights over small problems.
Although I'm happy to have him, but every night I cried, when I think of how we could never be together. it hurts thinkin' of how he'd be spending his life with someone other than me. But I always try to be strong. I don't want him to know about this, coz if i tell him about this, he'll ask me to end this relationship, coz he doesn't want to hurt me. But I know, if I lose him I will go back to my pessimist behavior and may end up into something worse, like drugs or suicide.
So I just wanna share my feelings here and I want to know what people think about us; coz i know, someday, people will find out about this... And at that time I don't know what I'm gonna do...