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Post by sleeplesshadow on Apr 3, 2006 11:28:28 GMT -5
I have been depressed for about 4 years, and i don't know what to do. I try to hide it. But the other day my mom was going through a ton of old photos and she ask me what happened to her perfect little girl. THe thing is i NEVER was that perfect little girl. I never felt right doing the things i did. I acted happy when i thought i was suppose to, and i never cried or showed that i was upset in anyway, because i was suppose to be "perfect". I was a FAKE and it pisses me off. But now i feel even worse cause if seems my mom thinks that she is missing someone she never had. She just thinks she had her. What can i do??
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Post by ¤Teen Vibe¤ on Apr 3, 2006 15:37:35 GMT -5
Stop being fake? I don't really know what you can do other then that. Even though you were acting fake happy your sadness probably still showed. Its not that easy to cover up. A person can smile all they want but you can still see sadness in their eyes.
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Post by lilcrazygirl on Apr 3, 2006 16:13:57 GMT -5
Tell her that you were never that girl. EVER!!! Besides...your mom shouldn't be calling you perfect because nobody's perfect ,and you shouldn't have to try to act like you're never sad or never depressed or never mad or anything like that. Show your mom who you really are. Show her that you never were that 'perfect' little girl.
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Post by GrapeJuice on Apr 4, 2006 2:50:37 GMT -5
I agree. NOBODY is perfect. You are you and thats all. Don't be fake be yourself be strong. Let your emotions out and whoever doesn't like it *beep* em'.
Most mothers get attached to how their children were when they were younger. Of course they do we can barely talk, they have 90% control over us, they control where we go (because they have to drive us) and a whole bunch of other things.
Then when we grow up they feel like your not the same because your being your own person and there not used to it yet. She will get used to it sooner or later. Your fine how you are.
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Post by p00p on Apr 4, 2006 16:13:30 GMT -5
its easier to help if u reply back with more to go on
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Post by sleeplesshadow on Apr 5, 2006 8:23:05 GMT -5
When i was little, i was considered the quiet good little grl. My sister on the other hand had constant temper tantrums, and my brother beat the shit out of me. But i never fought back because it wouldn't be "good". When i got upset (if i let it out) I would crawl into my closet and cry... . Now I daily cut the shit out of my arms...and hide it. I am anorexic, and i'm still trying to hide all the hurt i feel inside. My dad and mom divorced when i was little and my mom always asked if we were ok...and to this day, still does. I reply yes, and i never am....need anymore info??? if so just ask...i don't kwno what else to say
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Post by moronicscarecrow on Apr 5, 2006 8:48:21 GMT -5
*hugs*
You shouldn't have to hide your feelings from your family... and i know about cutting and hiding it, only about 4 people i know know that i have cut, although i think others seem to wonder why i suddenly wear long sleeves, or that wrist band, or why there's a scratch (cut) on my arm and i'm just like 'i fell out of a tree' or 'i dunno what happened, just turned up.'
maybe just break down, or just go scream your lungs out at someone especially if they don't understand what you are saying if you tell them how you feel. being passionate about something really tends to drill its way into someones head. i dunno if this is much help, but you'll probably feel better if you can tell everyone your not okay with everything. some people even if they know somethings wrong wont ask for what ever reason, so just tell them.
hope this may be some help, or just something to sort of read and go okay, but not for me... right now any of my advice will be rather out there and drastic because thats how i'm feeling due to a few of my issues.
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Post by pretzelofconfusion on Apr 6, 2006 17:41:55 GMT -5
hello to one and all! yes, you should NEVER have to hide yourself and how you are really feeling inside, or try to act like that perfect little girl when you aren't. no offense but there is not a human being on this earth who is perfect. i have been going through all the things i just said and it's HARD. DONT do it! you are who you are, whether some people like it or not you have no responsibility besides being yourself and no one else.
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Apr 7, 2006 4:13:52 GMT -5
Be honest with your mom. Don't say your fine when your not. Your cutting because your holding it all in. Be who you are even if your sad. let it out. You dont have to be perfect, no one is. your sad and you need to express that.
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Post by stars2mind on Apr 9, 2006 2:38:30 GMT -5
thats depressing.......what they said is right....just tell your mom, that she should accept you....and dont believe what was never true.... just tell her to show you love cuz what she tells you isnt gonna...i know my moms the same way...im in your situation..and makes me sad everyday that she wants someone i cant be....i feel like a dissapointment...and i hate dissapointing ppl you know...
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Post by sleeplesshadow on Apr 19, 2006 9:04:39 GMT -5
It hurts and it is draining. I find that i am so depressed. My mom is now engaged to man that idon't know....and i told her i liked him, but i'm scared of him
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Post by MuHa Feel the Wrath on Apr 24, 2006 4:18:51 GMT -5
omg that sucks tell her your scared of him dont lie be truthful with how u feel do it before they get married or it will be worse. thats soo horrible I dont know what i would do if that happened to me. I would pruposely try to break them up but thats just me.
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