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Post by butter on May 18, 2006 20:04:46 GMT -5
I'm not sure what is going on right now but I have been cutting, and just recently on my wrists.I don't exactly know why.I used to know exactly why I cut myself but it seems like anything sharp around me I use even if I'm happy.They would want to know and would be very upset if I told them.I have also noticed that I'm not doing so well with my friends.I really don't get noticed and no one cares about me, I have been thinking about suicide for some time now, I know it is the wrong solution to a short term problem, but I really think if I had a chance I would.But I don't know, my main problem is cutting.I don't know why I do it even when I'm happy. What do I do?
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Post by allianne on May 18, 2006 20:32:55 GMT -5
Well, I don't think you're happy..especially since you've been thinking about suicide. You say that even when you're happy you cut. It might be that you think you're happy, but subconsciously you're not. So, you cut even when you don't think or realize you're sad or hurt. Or, there is the possibility that you're addicted to cutting. In the mean time, try working out your problems and get the blades and razors somewhere you won't get to them.
A million times NO to the suicide idea! It's a permanant solution to a temporary problem! Life can suck. You can feel depressed and sad and just helpless...but it's not forever. The problems you're dealing with your friends won't last. Now, you know that it's a bad choice. I know it's easier said then done, but you can't do it! Next time you feel like you wanna die you could always come on here and i'm sure you could talk it out with someone. There are also hotlines you could call if you googled it. I've never tried them, but anything that could possibly help you from feeling suicidal is worth a shot.
You feel like ur friendsdon't notice you. Maybe it's because you're just not as excited around them as you used to be. When you're having a bad day, you're not quick to joke around or smile and you sulk. When you're having problems and are unhappy, then you're probably not being your normal self, so they aren't paying the same attension to you as they used to. Let's face it, we like to hang around positive people. But, if they're really your friends, maybe you could talk to one of them and tell them how you've been feeling and they'd understand.
Hang in there and be strong! Don't let your feelings control you...you're so much better than to let temporary problems bring you to death. *hugs*
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Post by Rachel on May 18, 2006 21:02:26 GMT -5
You sound a lot like me,so i can understand where your coming from. If your cutting for no particular reason..maybe out of boredom,or cos you simply 'can' do it..then i think there the signs of addiction to cutting yourself. If your cutting,even when your not stressed or sad,then it seems to me like your depending on cutting way to much,and because its become a habit to cut,you cant live without doing it. Now with cutting on your wrist. Simply try not to do it on that area. There are veins and allsorts there,and it could be extremelly dangerous if you cut too deep and hit something. You could quite possibly bleed a hell of a lot and it would certainly panic you. You would probably need medical attention asap,and that would be a right mess,because everyone would know you self harm. So please be careful with that. If you ever need to talk,im always available on msn for a chat,or you can pm me here,cos im in the same boat as you and totally understand Stay safe,and take care xx *hugs*
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Post by Sparkle on May 19, 2006 0:02:01 GMT -5
Cutting is an addiction. It's just like drugs, or anorexia- you can't stop, you just want more. You're a self harmer. Which means you don't need a reason for cutting. Take drugs- you try them for the first time. You enjoy them. Hlf a year down the line you are just taking them because you have to. It's exactly the same as cutting. Many times I have found myself needing to feel the sting of cutting, just because. So it's not normal that you are doing it for no reason.
But on line with Allianne- no, you don't sound happy. Is there any way you could talk to some one... a school counceller, after school one, phsychiatrist... They do help quite a lot of people.
Please keep safe, Sparkle, XO
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Post by !Dances With Hamsters! on May 20, 2006 1:04:48 GMT -5
wow these people above me are much smarter on this subject then I am even tho I am Dr.phillys love child You don't sound happy to me either but I just hope that you find what u need to stop this terrible thing. Dont let it control u sorry I dont have anything to add Im not too keen in this department but I would just hate to hear that u harmed urself.
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on May 20, 2006 4:03:33 GMT -5
I feel like everyone already covered everything. Feel free to PM me if you would like to talk in PM's.
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Post by butter on May 25, 2006 23:53:59 GMT -5
Thanks guys! Sorry I havent been on in a while to reply! Thank you for all the posts, I can't go to talk to anyone about this because I would have to ask my mom to drive me.You may be right about me not being happy, but I try to be, around my friends even if I'm faking I just don't see what is making me unhappy
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Post by !Dances With Hamsters! on May 26, 2006 5:11:41 GMT -5
Has anything happened that is making you un-happy? even if it was awhile ago? And could you take a bus or cab or something?
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Post by Rachel on May 26, 2006 11:26:38 GMT -5
could you take a bus or cab or something? these are good ideas you need to think about. I hope there possible,cos i would like you to get help,you deserve it and it might make your life a little easier and better. Or..if you really feel like you cant talk to anyone properly face to face,maybe you could try there4me.co.ukIf you register with them,then click on '1-2-1' it will put you in a chat with an online helper who you can talk with about your problems. Ive used it a couple of times,and it has occasionally made me feel better. Take care xx
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Post by ¤Teen Vibe¤ on May 26, 2006 15:53:32 GMT -5
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Post by butter on May 26, 2006 16:36:22 GMT -5
My parens are really on my case about what I do so I dont think I could take any way to get to someone. I can't remember what made me un-happy.I'm just shy and I think alot about why people dont like me, I think to much but I cant really help it
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