It seems like you've had a lot to deal with lately.
Dealing with pressure at school and from your parents is very difficult to deal with.
You never talk about how your parents are towards you. How they treat you and what they expect of you.
If there laid back,maybe have a chat with them? just say your feeling quite pressured to be practically..perfect,and that makes it 10x worse for you to work your best.
Fighting with siblings is common,in fact,if i come across someone who DOESNT fight with there brothers or sisters..i think to myself "Thats not normal" lol
I used to always argue with one of my brothers,and he would threaten me and once even gave me a black eye!
But hes grown up now,and so have i. He treats me like an adult and all that behaviour has totally gone.
So maybe just accept its normal and theres nothing wrong with argueing/fighting with them.
But if it starts getting out of hand,then you need to start thinking of maybe telling your parents.
Im sorry to hear that your grandparents are getting a divorce. How sad. But there are obviously reasons for that to happen. And who knows..it may make them both happier if there not together anymore?
I know that might sound hasty and nasty,but ive watched my mum divorce my ex step-father,and i was happy about it,cos i hated him and knew it was for the best.
Boyfriend cheating...what a piece of dirt he sounds! Thats disgraceful how he betrayed you and went behind your back with someone else,when you trusted him and cared for him. Just forget him..hes a loser. You CAN do so much better then that.
Now onto the self harm.
I started out by scratching myself occasionally. I would get stressed or really emotional,and get out my little scissors,and scratch my arms with them just to release the negative feelings i was dealing with.
Then it got to a point where i wanted to see blood,and on a few occasions,i did scratch so hard that i got blood,but not enough.
I wanted to see more blood,and so one day,i went into the bathroom like a crazy girl,got my razor and took out the blade. That was a few weeks ago,and since then,ive kept the blade inside my diary. And whenever i need it,i cut my arms.
Trust me..it gets worse from the first time you do it.
And if your doing 'just a small cut' and its bringing blood and leaving a mark,then it IS cutting,whether you say it isnt or not. It sounds like it is
I might not have helped,but i hope you feel better. I hope you can open your mouth and tell someone how your feeling,because its not right you should not tell anyone your feeling this bad. Speak up and tell someone,plz?
Anyone at all you trust. Such as one of your family members,or a friend,maybe a school teacher or the school nurse?
Whoever it is,i hope they provide you with the help you deserve.
Hold your head up high,and keep smiling
Take care,and stay safe xx *hugs*