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Post by Beans Meanz Heinz on Jun 9, 2006 15:17:09 GMT -5
Usually me and my boyfriend tell each other when we cut. But I'm sick of letting him down. I know I should just stop but I can't. Even when I've stopped it for a while, I keep going back to it. I just can't help it, I just can't think of a different way to deal with things. I did it again today, and I've kept it from my boyfriend and I just can't tell him, he has his own problems to worry about, never mind me dumping mine on him. But then I have no one to talk to. I don't know why I'm writing this, I just guess I need some advice of some sort.
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Post by stars2mind on Jun 10, 2006 1:09:56 GMT -5
please dont say you cant cuz its not true at all...even though at the moment it seems like a mission impossible!!!
You say you dont what to let him down..but how do you know he doesnt feel the same way!!!! you love your bf right??? be honest wouldn't you want the same honesty from him...
if you wanna help each other just stick by each other you know!!! the one you love will always be there to fight your hardest battles with you!!
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Post by Sparkle on Jun 10, 2006 4:24:57 GMT -5
Stopping isn't impossible. You just need will power. Find some thing else to vent your anger... take up kickboxing . About the boyfriend thing... have you two tried stopping together? I don't think you can lie, trust is hard to win back, and even if he didn't find out you'd still feel guilty and seperated from him.
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Post by Beans Meanz Heinz on Jun 10, 2006 10:26:04 GMT -5
That's not all I have to worry about. My mam's just found out. I stupidly had a pair of shorts on and they rode up n she was like whats that and marched me upstairs to talk about it in private. She's basicaly just told me that I'm not right in the head and yelling at me asking why I do it. And I have the word fat etched into my leg and she's like where's the fat, why you wrote that. And she says that I have to rethink what I'm taking for A levels next year, because I wanted to take psychology and she's like your not mentally stable yourself. She's removed all the sharp objects and I'm having to be supervised 24/7. And she says that I have to go with them tomorrow to watch my sis run because they don't trust me in the house by myself, the main thing I hate is that I'm gunna miss the british grand prix, and it's not as if I was planning to do anything. I'm just frustrated at myself for her finding out. She says she's gunna send me to see someone, I really don't want to. I know it might help but I just hate talking about how I feel.
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Post by Sparkle on Jun 10, 2006 14:07:33 GMT -5
Your Mother doesn't know how to react.. it's a shock findingn out herchild has been self harming.... so don't feel angry at her. She's unsure of what to do. My parents were the same... they're still unsure of leaving mwe alone in the house and they found out Janurary time. And don't worry, they're your A levels, not your mothers. Thought about what to do with your boyfriend?
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Post by Beans Meanz Heinz on Jun 10, 2006 14:24:08 GMT -5
It's not the first time she's found out. She found out a year into it, then she found out again this year that I was still doing it, and she thought I had stopped until today.
I've told my boyfriend. He took it well and just asked why I'd done it and said he understands. And when I told him about my mam he say's he'll be there for me and if I'm angry I can shout at him or hit him, and if I'm upset he'll wipe away my tears and listen. I don't know why i was scared to tell him he's such a great guy. Thanks for the advice guys.
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Post by Dregond [Gone] on Jun 10, 2006 14:37:24 GMT -5
bah , dont worry abt a-levels, my parents wanted me to take them early and pushed me for it, you take your time and do which ever coruses you want to take..you must like the subjects , thats whats important. if you like psychology take it, you will be good at it, someteims you need to be trhu things to be able to understand concepts in psychology and on a side note, if i was your boyfriend, id want to knwo if you cut yourself, sure i woudl be mad for a while , but then id take peace that you told me, and will try to help you..
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Jun 10, 2006 22:32:15 GMT -5
I'm taking my first year Phsyc and it does alot with your own self - like what I mean is you do projects about your own problems and stuff and work through them to learn the course. Its really interesting. Anyways even though your mom found out its for the best, Now she can also help you. She probably just doesn't know how to handle it (even if she did catch you before) its not a easy thing for a parent to find out. About your boyfriend just be honest - thats what relationships are for - to confide in them and stuff.
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Post by Beans Meanz Heinz on Jun 13, 2006 12:16:01 GMT -5
Thanks for the advice. I've sorted things with my bofriend, and things are starting to sort themselves out with me and my parents.
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Post by Sparkle on Jun 13, 2006 13:40:09 GMT -5
I'm glad. *Glomp*
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Post by stars2mind on Jun 13, 2006 22:37:52 GMT -5
hey im happy things are going better for you
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