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Post by ily on Jun 27, 2006 23:19:15 GMT -5
well last night i was really upset over...well nothing...ell kinda yeah it was something but yeah and i cut my arm but instead of doing it on my wrist where i could hide it i did it on the other side of my arm...and at school i kept forgetting and pulling my sleeve up and one of the boys goes to me 'do you slit your wrists' and i quickly pulled my sleeve down gave him the evils then walked away...and im afraid he wasnt the only one to see them and if the teachers find out they will talk to me like im a little kid telling me its wrong and yeah i hate hoe they do that i mean have they ever done it' i think not so why cant they just keep out of it!? and then if the teachers tell my parents my mum will send me away for ever and never let me back here =( and that means i will lose all my mates and ill have to break up with my boyfriend who im totally inlove with! and when i told my boyfriend about it afterwards he got really angry and i didnt know what to do...so i kinda started cutting again...then i stopped because i didnt want to make him any more angry then he was and he keeps saying if i do it again he will leave me but every time i do it again he doesnt and im just afraid one day he will...and...
I TOTALLY SCREWED UP...once again
i just cant stop cutting when i know its not good for me and its ruining my life but i just cant stop...
its my anti-drug...
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Post by MuHa Feel the Wrath on Jun 27, 2006 23:24:22 GMT -5
man that sucks why do you know they willl send you away?
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Post by [Taboo] on Jun 27, 2006 23:26:24 GMT -5
I know exactly how you feel, when you think you cant live with out it. but maybe you could do somethingto get it so you dont cut like listen to music, or excercise, or call your boyfriend, or go for a walk just anything to get your mind off of cutting. or come talk to us here, im usually on and you can PM me anytime. just hang in there.
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Post by ily on Jun 27, 2006 23:54:18 GMT -5
man that sucks why do you know they willl send you away? because a couple of months ago my mum found out i was doing it so i stopped and she said if i ever find out your doing it again im sending you away and never letting you back here I know exactly how you feel, when you think you cant live with out it. but maybe you could do somethingto get it so you dont cut like listen to music, or excercise, or call your boyfriend, or go for a walk just anything to get your mind off of cutting. or come talk to us here, im usually on and you can PM me anytime. just hang in there. well i hate expressing my feelings and when i talk to my boyfriend about it he wants to know how im feeling but i just cant seem to tell anyone i just keep it to myself and let it build up...like i build a wall and wont let anyone smash it down or climb over it or go through the gate and well i listen to music all the time and yeah...it usually works but some times it doesnt and well if i exercise ill probably lose weight and right now i dont think thats a good idea...
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Post by [Taboo] on Jun 28, 2006 0:17:55 GMT -5
okay well what about getting like a vollonter job??? IDK just came to mind.
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Post by ily on Jun 28, 2006 0:44:09 GMT -5
lol there are no jobs like that where i live its kind of stupid...im going to try to stop but i dont know how long it will last...
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Post by Sparkle on Jun 28, 2006 0:51:15 GMT -5
It was last as long as you make it last. I know how hard it is, but think about how much it's mucking up your life, and how much better it would be if you stopped... please do this. and yeah- find some thing else but no excercice!
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Post by [Taboo] on Jun 28, 2006 1:04:33 GMT -5
Yea just get your mind off of it anyway you can
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Post by ily on Jun 28, 2006 1:12:37 GMT -5
yeah im trying lol im going to start now...today right now lol
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Post by [Taboo] on Jun 28, 2006 1:15:13 GMT -5
Good
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Post by ily on Jun 28, 2006 1:21:20 GMT -5
yeah i hope i can last more then a week this time lol
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Post by [Taboo] on Jun 28, 2006 12:45:56 GMT -5
I didnt think that i could lasta week but now ive lasted 7 weeks today =].
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Post by ily on Jun 28, 2006 14:30:40 GMT -5
yeah well i almost did it last night so yeah but i thinki kept strong!
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Post by L.B on Jun 28, 2006 14:50:10 GMT -5
yeah well i almost did it last night so yeah but i thinki kept strong! well thats some good news
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Post by ily on Jun 30, 2006 0:04:54 GMT -5
yeah...im determined to stop again...
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Post by Alcohol4ever on Jul 2, 2006 12:43:26 GMT -5
can you do like a sport or something? or get a hobby that will help you get your mind off of things..
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Post by ily on Jul 6, 2006 18:21:19 GMT -5
well im looking for a dance teacher since yeah...
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