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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 22, 2006 10:05:59 GMT -5
My whole life i had gone through alot... Before 3rd grade i moved everywhere FL,VA,AZ, and even Turkey which is in Europe... Most of the time it was either with both of my parents or mom or dad but in 3rd grade around Dec i moved back down here to FL with my mom(she was pregnant) and my Lil brother about 3 years old and my parents got a divorce and my dad was never allowed to see us kids again(I'm glad) while i always have fought with my mom and it had gotten so bad that i moved in with my aunt and uncle and then my aunt and my mom got into a fight and i had to move in with my grandparents well about 4 months later my little brother and sister had to moved in with my grandparents also because my mom was in jail for leaving my little sister(3 years old) home alone while going somewhere and she was never allowed to get us back........ well my mom always had different mood swings and come to find out she is bi-polar and she also had a drinking problem(which is why i moved out) while my mom got out of jail and find herself a boyfriend well she got pregnant with my little half brother and she couldn't take care of him so he was adopted to my best friend's aunt(well that ain't really relative) and i found out that i also had a older half brother that i never knew or seen in my 14 years and i really wish i knew who he was so i could have someone to talk to i have never been able to talk to anyone before because i am the oldest out of 3 and now the 2nd oldest out of 4( Cody is my dad's son and Wyatt(my Lil half bro is my mom's son) well i fight with my grandma alot and i try not to but i get my feels hurt easy expectational when my grandmother is being rude to me like saying i can't sing(she says she was just kidding but i don't believe her) .... well my mom is back in jail and i read a letter to my grandma from my mom that said she think it would be best for us kids that she don't come back and i don't think it is and i just don't know what to do anymore
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Post by Sparkle on Jun 22, 2006 14:20:48 GMT -5
Wow... I had to read that a few times to get my head around it. Look- I know you're having a really hard time at the moment, and it sounds like you're keeping it all in. Is there any one you can talk to? A counceller, your grandmother? If you explained how you're feeling you'd get into less fights, she'd understand you more... How are your siblings finding this? I take it from that comment you like singing? What type of music do you like?
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Post by Italian Stallion on Jun 22, 2006 15:06:05 GMT -5
man that must suck, u dont believe ur grandma when she says u can' sing (kiddingly) because u don't believe you can sing ur self.
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 22, 2006 15:54:07 GMT -5
I have been to many counselors and this year i was talking to my school counselor Mrs.Taft and i would love to keep talking to her but I'm moving into High School and Mrs.Taft works at my old middle school and i ain't talking to my grandma about this stuff she doesn't understand me at all.......my little brother and sister are only 8 and 5 years old and they don't understand anything....I'm a chorus member( was a chorus member) and i love singing those songs and they were hard.... I have people everywhere around me that hear me sing and they say i sing perfect and I'm a loud singer so i have to be able to sing... my grandma has only heard me sing my high chorus songs never my music i listen to..... i sing mostly country and i know i can sing
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Post by GrapeJuice on Jun 22, 2006 16:00:29 GMT -5
Moving around that much and then loosing your father and mother can be extremely hard for anyone! Remeber that your grandma won't be around for ever so just try and get along or your going to regret it when she passes away. I think all grandchildren should get along with their grandparents regardless of what they do or say. For example my grandma is rude and snobby but I treat her with respect and care everytime I talk to her. I've learned to let it roll off me because I know she won't be around for long. I'm sure you are a really good singer, Sometimes people Joke around like that, I tell people they suck in a joking way even when I know they don't.. They believe they are good so joking around about it doesn't hurt their feelings. If you know in your heart you are good then thats all that matters. For being 14 you've had alot of shitty stuff happen to you. I feel like your doing an okay job dealing with it right now. I'm sorry to hear about your friend. Its good your talking to a counseller but what would be even better is a grief counseller. They are trained specifically to help with geiving people. Normal counsellers aren't.
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 22, 2006 16:08:16 GMT -5
I know that she won't be here for long and i learn my lesson about being rude and mean to people without saying sorry because it could be their last day..... but we don't have the money for me to see a grief counselor because my little brother is having to get surgery, metal braces for his feet and also special shoes and i know they would never take me because they don't know how i feel i don't show my sadness or grief around them they already have so much to deal with without me having problems(plus they play no attention to me or i would probably be in so much trouble for doing stuff i ain't suppose to)
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Post by Firey Shades Of Blue on Jun 22, 2006 18:37:23 GMT -5
The goverment offeres free counselling services. A friend of mine had a grief counseller come and talk to them one on one at their school. You don't have to pay for it.
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 22, 2006 19:20:30 GMT -5
like i said they aint going to take me
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Jun 22, 2006 21:11:26 GMT -5
They come to your school just like you would talk to a regular counseller, no need to be taken anywhere. I've talked to one before at my school I asked (they have them everywhere) and they had one come in and we set up times to talk during school hours.
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 22, 2006 21:41:55 GMT -5
Really? the problem with me going during school hours is that I'm having to be put into a reading class(i was on pain pills and had to take FCAT) and they really don't let us do alot but maybe my high school will allowed me to be able to see one
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Jun 22, 2006 21:52:07 GMT -5
Well it doesn't have to be during class, you can see them before school, after school, during gym etc.
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 22, 2006 21:53:12 GMT -5
yeah(i dont have gym) hopefully my school does that because i really ain't sure
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Post by Firey Shades Of Blue on Jun 27, 2006 0:26:28 GMT -5
You don't have a gym? I thought gym was something you HAD to do.
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Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Jun 30, 2006 16:04:45 GMT -5
No I have ROTC and half of that time i think i have stupid Reading Class... but if i didnt take ROTC then i would have to have gym
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