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Post by broberg09 on Jul 25, 2006 22:37:59 GMT -5
In November one of my best friends committed suicide.. I felt so alone beacuse i had just moved and nobody understood how i felt.. they'd all ask if i was ok... i knew they were worried and cared but I always said "NO! Im not ok.. my best friend just killed herself.. leave me alone!" and I'd cry.. I still do that sometimes..I think about her all the time and how much i'd like to be with her..
My family life sucks since my mom divorced my stepdad.. We used to be a normal "happy" family.. My mom, my stepdad, my older brother, me, my younger brother and 2 younger sisters. When they divorced we moved 2oo miles away.. leaving behind a whole life.. my little brother stayed with his dad. My older brother being a senior and 17 stayed up there too..
I have been in counseling for 6 years... Due to I am diabetic and couldn't accept that.. my dad left when i was little and wants nothing to do with me, and now my friend brittany.. I started cutting too.. It doesn't hurt till the next day.. then I regret it.. but i do it again and again. I feel so alone.
I dont know what to do.. I text my friend morgan half the night all the time and she listens.. shes the only one who does.. I really don't nkow what to do.. someone help?
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Post by , Anna, BO, Banna, on Jul 26, 2006 5:50:43 GMT -5
u can talk to sumone here
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Jul 26, 2006 6:50:50 GMT -5
Wow that really sucks, There is a couple threads about how to stop cutting and stuff, Maybe check them out. I think they are in the "Helpful Websites" thread at the top.
You can also PM me anytime.
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Post by MuHa Feel the Wrath on Jul 26, 2006 16:23:07 GMT -5
My parents divorced too so I knid of know where yer coming from there. theres lots of people who u can talk to here. just tell us what u need and stuff.
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Post by Sparkle on Jul 28, 2006 4:08:43 GMT -5
Some times people don't know how to react, and it's hard for every one. When my friend was on the edge of suicide, I imagined a lot of situations, and although it doesn't come close,I can imagine how you feel, and I'm so sorry. You seem like a really nice persomn and you don't deserve it, no one does. *hugs* How long ago did your parents get divorced? I can't imagine how hard it must be, half your family splitting up, although I argue with my brothers I can't imagine being apart from them. So you're with your 2 younger sisters... how do you get on with them? *Sorry, I really should stop asking questions * Your friend morgan sounds really nice.... I'd love to have a friend like that Is she in your new place, or is she where you moved away from? Just remember, although we have been slow replying to this thread, we are always here to talk, and although I am not very good with advice, if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me, email me or add me on MSN.
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Post by Alcohol4ever on Jul 28, 2006 17:44:08 GMT -5
I know exactly how you feel. I have lost several friends from suicide. If you would like to talk to someone like whenever. You can add me to MSN (Cuddley.Teddy.Bear@hotmail.com) AIM: (Cuddley Teddy 69) I would love to talk to you. Just don't give up!
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Post by broberg09 on Aug 5, 2006 22:22:11 GMT -5
my real parents divorced when i was just a baby but my mom and stepdad the guy that everyone thinks is my dad divorced just a year ago... I really do miss my brothers... nobody really knows that though. My sisters and I don't get along. It could be the age differences but I dont know. My friend Morgan lives where I live now.. Things are just messed up right now.. Suddenly my real dad out of no where just calls me and my mom made me go to his house.. He bought me a new cell phone and school clothes.. but it still didn't feel right.. Somethings up and I dont know what it is... Its weird...
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Aug 6, 2006 17:21:18 GMT -5
Its normal to feel weird about it, Did he move far away or something? Whats the age differences between you and your sisters? Usually siblings don't get along lol.
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Post by broberg09 on Aug 7, 2006 21:59:22 GMT -5
we moved about 200 miles away from my stepdad and two bothers.. my sisters oh wow.. we are 8 years apart and 1o years apart.. i only get along with my older brother we are full siblings.. my little siblings are half
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Aug 8, 2006 16:17:29 GMT -5
Thats a pretty big age difference. If they are older then you then I think that would be easier to make a relationship with them.
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Post by broberg09 on Aug 11, 2006 16:37:25 GMT -5
we dont have a relationship at all.. i just hate life and i am ready to end it right now
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Post by xbrokenxdreams on Aug 11, 2006 17:35:40 GMT -5
dont end it. please dont. *hugs*
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Post by broberg09 on Aug 11, 2006 19:05:18 GMT -5
i just can't do it anymore... all my mom and i do is scream at eachother.. i want out..
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Post by xbrokenxdreams on Aug 11, 2006 23:17:45 GMT -5
Suicide is not a way out. There are other ways..
I know how you feel really I do. My best friend killed herself 2 weeks ago. My real dad died when i was 6. My stepdad and my mom divorced when I was 10. My mom and I are always fighting. She hates me. No joke. She's told me she wishes I was never born and that the world would be a better place if i just killed myself. I think about suicide everyday even tried it a few times.
Please just talk to us.
*hugs*
<3
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Post by broberg09 on Aug 12, 2006 11:54:58 GMT -5
I just feel like when I'm on here.. Everyone cares, everyone listens... No one judges, nobody is frickin mean... I just hate it though.. Last night I was with my friends and laughed and joked and 2 minutes after I walked into the house I lost it and started crying.. I dont even know why.. I dunno what to do anymore
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Post by Alcohol4ever on Aug 12, 2006 12:45:02 GMT -5
Have you ever thought of moving in with your friends, like to there house? It could work. Just don't do anything, we all care about you hun.
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Post by broberg09 on Aug 12, 2006 18:30:58 GMT -5
yeah right.. my mother would never let me move to my friends... specially not after what happened this AM
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