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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Aug 2, 2006 16:34:01 GMT -5
Last night my mom read what I wrote about her abortion on another site, and I feel so guilty, she was saying that she thought she could tell me things and I would understand but she can't. I can't believe she read it... So then I was crying a lot and I got knives and just slashed up my wrists. They were still bleeding an hour later and the skin around them was red and puffy. I cleaned them and put baid-aids on them. They are still bad today though... I can't believe I went 11 weeks without cutting, even though I was depressed, I then I had to be an idiot and write about my mom and now I have to start counting the days all over again... I'm such an idiot, I don't even know why I posted that. Now she's acting different and distant. I ruined what I had with her. We were like good friends and now I ruined it, she won't even really talk to me. Help.
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Post by Family Guy on Aug 2, 2006 17:07:06 GMT -5
I dunno what u wrote about her but if its nothing bad just say u wanted to get it out of ur system cuz it was a shock to u or something i hope u dont cut again
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Aug 2, 2006 20:34:26 GMT -5
11 weeks is a long time! Did you explain to your mom why you posted about her abortion? As well as her you have to deal with it too, So I hope she can understand that. I'm sure she will come around sooner or later. You have already gone such long time without cutting so you can do it again, Next time remeber how much work you put into being SH free and make different desisions instead of cutting.
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Aug 3, 2006 4:53:28 GMT -5
Yeah, she's just kind of sulking now, crying and not talking to me... I told her that I didn't have a problem with it and I was just getting it out of my system and it was anonymous anyway, but she was saying that she's hurt and that I shouldn't be the one hurting because nothing happened to me and blah blah... if she would quit sulking and stuff I would be totally over it. It doesn't even bother me... it's just that she's bringing it up and saying that she thought I would understand but I don't and stuff.... ugh... oh well... thanks
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Post by WilD CherrY on Aug 3, 2006 16:23:57 GMT -5
Aww its okay I hope you don't feel too bad because it was anonymous (sp?) how are things today?
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Aug 3, 2006 20:25:19 GMT -5
Better... I get so ashamed of the cuts... I can't leave because I don't want people seeing them and I always have to hide my wrist. I hate it...
~Lonely
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Aug 4, 2006 7:42:27 GMT -5
Okay hun IT SHOULD hurt you. You missed out on a sibiling. I hoe she comes around and stops being mad with you Dont cut anymore!! Its so much worse after cutting
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Aug 5, 2006 5:31:01 GMT -5
Ok, thank you. She has been better lately... I want to cut again, I wish the cuts wouldn't show up after and I could just cut and then have them disappear.
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Aug 5, 2006 5:35:14 GMT -5
Check yer PMs
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Aug 5, 2006 5:49:08 GMT -5
Hehe. I did. Thank you!!
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Aug 5, 2006 6:05:13 GMT -5
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