Post by dee__x on Aug 3, 2006 2:09:18 GMT -5
First and foremost, please don't even look at suicide as one of your options.
Firstly, you said how sad your mother was when she stopped talking to her half of the family; just imagine how sad [and sad is a very weak word to describe the intense emotion] she would be if she lost you.
Obviously your parents haven't been the best. It sounds as though they wanted to be [by telling you that you should go to them if you need to talk], but for some reason lacked the ability to follow through [by not showing you enough attention and perhaps neglecting you]
This means there is something wrong with their parenting skills, and absolutely nothing wrong with you as a daughter.
Now, we are all products of the environment we grow up in, and someone coming from a happy and 'normal' childhood is bound to be more emotionally stable than someone who has had to struggle for attention and struggle to get by. Because you feel your childhood has not been what it should have, you have given up on the present too. Wearing pyjammas all day and not bothering to do school work is like signing your future away. You know that if you want to achieve your goals in life, you're going to have to pull your finger out and start working again, just like everybody else.
As well as this, the fact that you were molested at such a young age, added to the fact that initially, your parents didn't believe you; has obviously had a deep effect on you. The main thing to remember here is that your treatment was in no way your fault. You didn't deserve to be molested, no one does, and you certainly didn't deserve for your parents not to believe you. They should have known that nobody would lie about such a thing.
Now you need to know that there are people in this world who do believe you, and believe in you.
I believe every word you have written above, and I also believe that you can get through this and build an incredible future for yourself.
It's going to take time, but the first step is right around the corner. Starting a new school is a fantastic opportunity; a fresh start. Only you can decide what kind of person you're going to be now, and this will define the kind of people who will befriend you.
You need to get away from the wild friends you have made in the past- because they will only lead to self-destructive behaviour; alcohol, drugs [as you said].
And this fresh start, along with the realisation of your bright future will help to ease the pain; meaning that hopefully the desire to cut will reduce, and the desire to end your beautiful and precious life will fade to nothing.
Good luck, let me know how you're feeling xx
Firstly, you said how sad your mother was when she stopped talking to her half of the family; just imagine how sad [and sad is a very weak word to describe the intense emotion] she would be if she lost you.
Obviously your parents haven't been the best. It sounds as though they wanted to be [by telling you that you should go to them if you need to talk], but for some reason lacked the ability to follow through [by not showing you enough attention and perhaps neglecting you]
This means there is something wrong with their parenting skills, and absolutely nothing wrong with you as a daughter.
Now, we are all products of the environment we grow up in, and someone coming from a happy and 'normal' childhood is bound to be more emotionally stable than someone who has had to struggle for attention and struggle to get by. Because you feel your childhood has not been what it should have, you have given up on the present too. Wearing pyjammas all day and not bothering to do school work is like signing your future away. You know that if you want to achieve your goals in life, you're going to have to pull your finger out and start working again, just like everybody else.
As well as this, the fact that you were molested at such a young age, added to the fact that initially, your parents didn't believe you; has obviously had a deep effect on you. The main thing to remember here is that your treatment was in no way your fault. You didn't deserve to be molested, no one does, and you certainly didn't deserve for your parents not to believe you. They should have known that nobody would lie about such a thing.
Now you need to know that there are people in this world who do believe you, and believe in you.
I believe every word you have written above, and I also believe that you can get through this and build an incredible future for yourself.
It's going to take time, but the first step is right around the corner. Starting a new school is a fantastic opportunity; a fresh start. Only you can decide what kind of person you're going to be now, and this will define the kind of people who will befriend you.
You need to get away from the wild friends you have made in the past- because they will only lead to self-destructive behaviour; alcohol, drugs [as you said].
And this fresh start, along with the realisation of your bright future will help to ease the pain; meaning that hopefully the desire to cut will reduce, and the desire to end your beautiful and precious life will fade to nothing.
Good luck, let me know how you're feeling xx