Post by Southern_Cowgirl on Aug 17, 2006 20:14:59 GMT -5
I think this is the worst month of my life well the 3rd worse month of my life..... I've been so depressed lately and i don't want to tell my friends because i don't want them to worry about me and i don't want them calling like every hour telling me i better not cut and stuff... My grandma is no help neither is my grandpa....... 8/13 i almost runaway and i was soooooo close i knew where i was going and i wrote my runaway letter because i know my grandma don't care about me( she took the plugs away and hide them and they left and if i was dieing or something i wouldnt be able to call anyone) 8/12(i think) my bestfriend & my cousin started goin out which means if they break up its going to be sooo bad for me because they're probably going to be talking crap about each other and i can't deal with that... I got to see my boyfriend for like 10 seconds because my bestfriend's stepdad said that if he showed up in his yard to see me then he was gonna shot him soo all i gots to do was give him a hug and i can't get ahold of him or anything and like a little while ago everyone was worry about me because i did hurt myself(wow did i just say that) and they think im gonna do it again but i aint because one brittany hide my razor two i promise alot of people i wouldnt and i dont break promises like my mom...... Gracie and Tommie the ones who adopted my lil half brother hasn't sent any pictures or a letter to my mom since my grandma called her and told her what was going on with me and Christina(which is like her cousin i think i aint sure)..... and i cant find my older half brother and its making me mad cuz i want to find him sooooooo badly that it hurts....... I just ain't sure what to do anymore(sorry i post alot about me being depressed but i have to get this out)