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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Sept 27, 2006 20:18:39 GMT -5
Life seems to always go from bad to worse for me. I almost never have a good day anymore. The only person who can really brighten my day is my boyfriend, but today he was the one who made it worse. I just can't take it. I want this to all end. I'm in so much pain emotionally and everytime I pass by something harmful I get suicidal thoughts. If I pass by the knife draw I think about just stabbing myself to death. I want to cut so badly right now but I've been doing so well on not cutting. The scars from the last time are just about gone but i'm tempted to reopen them. I'm writing this so hopefully I won't cut but I'm not sure if this is going to work. ='[ I just want everything to end, I want all this hurt and suffering to go away....
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Post by Ruby on Sept 27, 2006 21:59:55 GMT -5
awww Fluffmeister....Don't cut, don't hurt yourself. Do you have any hobbies that you love? I would miss you soooo much if you did!
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Post by Hairball Juni on Sept 27, 2006 23:19:29 GMT -5
Don't cut youself, find some hobbies and activites that you enjoy. Maybe there are support groups for people with depression.. maybe you could look into that. If you believe in yourself, you won't be hurting forever, trust me,- the experiance might even make you stronger as a person.
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Post by Sparkle on Sept 28, 2006 1:06:13 GMT -5
BAbe... you know there are so many people that care about you. PLEASE don't do this.
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Post by littlemikey on Sept 28, 2006 2:01:22 GMT -5
Life seems to always go from bad to worse for me. I almost never have a good day anymore. The only person who can really brighten my day is my boyfriend, but today he was the one who made it worse. I just can't take it. I want this to all end. I'm in so much pain emotionally and everytime I pass by something harmful I get suicidal thoughts. If I pass by the knife draw I think about just stabbing myself to death. I want to cut so badly right now but I've been doing so well on not cutting. The scars from the last time are just about gone but i'm tempted to reopen them. I'm writing this so hopefully I won't cut but I'm not sure if this is going to work. ='[ I just want everything to end, I want all this hurt and suffering to go away.... Please dont hurt yourself, that never solves anything. What happend to make you feel this way?
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Post by GrapeJuice on Sept 28, 2006 2:07:12 GMT -5
What happened between you and your boyfriend?
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Post by `Avvy on Sept 28, 2006 14:57:09 GMT -5
hey hon.. i dont actually know you but thats okay...
i used to be just like that, except maybe a bit worse (idk). my life turned around when my sister caught me trying to hang myself in my closet (not gonna say how because I don't want to give anyone any ideas) and anyways, it was a stupid idea, really. I thought I'd never pass through it. It really hurt me at the time because my bff had pretty much abandoned me and i didnt really have any other friends. Not to mention I was coming up with two timers on the guy end.
I was all set to die and everything that day, but I looked at how hurt my sister was when she saw me like that, that I'd even had thoughts about leaving her by choice and I thought, hey. What if there's another person out there somewhere thats the same way? I realised that by killing myself I might actually make my sister depressed, and I just couldn't stand the thought.
So the next time that you pass by the drawr of knives, or you see a gun in a movie, or a rope on the road, just remember- somewhere, sometime, there's gonna be someone who will really suffer, really really really suffer, if you go, and do you want that on your shoulders as well? i chose no, and I really hope you do the same. PM me sometime and we can talk about your feelings... i know for one it was pretty hard not to be able to talk to anyone who understood.
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Sept 28, 2006 17:32:00 GMT -5
Please dont hurt yourself, that never solves anything. What happend to make you feel this way? What happened between you and your boyfriend? littlemikey: I know it never solves anything and the people who know I cut have told me that but something about the phisical pain takes the other pain away. I'm usually happy but these past few days just seem to turn out like crap. It's usually after I come home from school. I love school right now (which is surprising) but whenever I come home from school I always get depressed. My dad doesn't even say hi to me but instead yells at me for something I didn't do. My brother's friends came over and when they do they all gang up on me. One of them even kicked me just because he could. Grape Juice: My boyfriends cousin came over his house drunk and hit him in the stomach. That made him made so my boyfriend overdosed on anti-depressent pills. He was in the hospital when I got home and I found from his friend. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Just to let all of you know I am feeling a little better today. My boyfriends fine and out of the hospital and at the moment I'm in a good mood. I want to thank all of you for helping me. I didn't see any of the replies until today but they made me smile. I read them and it made me happy to see that so many people care about me. I didn't cut last night nor hurt myself in anyway which I'm glad of that now. I would have regretted it. I found out that one of my friends feels the same way as I do so I'll be going to him and we'll help each other out. =] You guys are amazing and I'm really glad I joined this site. You all have helped me stop from cutting and hurting myself a lot more times then you think. I can talk to ya'll about stuff and won't be judged. So what I'm trying to say is.....
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Post by WilD CherrY on Oct 2, 2006 20:58:38 GMT -5
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
I'm SOOOOOOO GLAD your doing better now!!
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Post by myheartmoved on Oct 3, 2006 3:00:35 GMT -5
sorry i never replied sooner. i hope ur stil doing well. i love ur side picture thing
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Oct 3, 2006 17:13:28 GMT -5
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I'm SOOOOOOO GLAD your doing better now!! Thanks. =] sorry i never replied sooner. i hope ur stil doing well. i love ur side picture thing Yeah I'm still doing good. I found out on Sunday, October 1st, that my ex turned out to actually be a girl. 0.o. That is the last time I hook up with someone on the internet that myself or my friends haven't seen before. That got me down since I felt cheated. I didn't hurt myself though which I'm proud of myself now. I kept thinking that my boyfriend would get mad and other people (including you guys) would be sad so I forced myself to light a candle and just watch it. That calms me down. But I'm doing good now and it's still all thanks to you guys.
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Post by !Dances With Hamsters! on Oct 3, 2006 18:13:06 GMT -5
So it was a girl pretending to be a guy?!?!?!!?!? How did you find out?
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Post by littlemikey on Oct 3, 2006 19:11:26 GMT -5
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I'm SOOOOOOO GLAD your doing better now!! Thanks. =] sorry i never replied sooner. i hope ur stil doing well. i love ur side picture thing Yeah I'm still doing good. I found out on Sunday, October 1st, that my ex turned out to actually be a girl. 0.o. That is the last time I hook up with someone on the internet that myself or my friends haven't seen before. That got me down since I felt cheated. I didn't hurt myself though which I'm proud of myself now. I kept thinking that my boyfriend would get mad and other people (including you guys) would be sad so I forced myself to light a candle and just watch it. That calms me down. But I'm doing good now and it's still all thanks to you guys. I'm really happy to know that you are getting better, keep at it, and dont give up!
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Post by Jessi Wessi™ on Oct 3, 2006 20:23:00 GMT -5
So it was a girl pretending to be a guy?!?!?!!?!? How did you find out? yes it was a girl pretending to be a guy. I found out when one of her friends came online and told her current girlfriend. The girlfriend told me since we're friends and I got a confession out of her. I was creeped out 0.o very creeped out at first.... and to Little Mikey thank you very much ^-^ RAWR!
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Post by WilD CherrY on Oct 4, 2006 2:32:33 GMT -5
OOo O,0 did you date her/him online or soemthing? that would be MESSED I would be PISSED.
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Post by Sparkle on Oct 4, 2006 8:33:05 GMT -5
OMG that would mess me up lol. Glad your not with them O.0
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Oct 4, 2006 10:39:42 GMT -5
*speechless* you rawk!
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