Post by Seira on Jul 20, 2006 4:52:42 GMT -5
Almost a year ago, I think, my friend's sister was still living in the same house as my friend, and had a subscription to Seventeen Magazine. I was flipping through one of the copies that was sitting on the counter since I was somewhat bored, and I came across an article that was focused on teenage girls that feel like everyone around them expects them to be perfect. Out of a poll of... howeversomany girls, 35% of them felt this way, and I found myself saying "Really? Only 35%?" Out loud, because I myself feel like that, too, and I thought it was natural for everyone to feel like they weren't good enough most of the time, and that was why people set goals.
Am I really that different from most people?
I remember the beginning of the year when I got a B- in Pre-Algebra, and I hadn't gotten a B- in a very long time - it was always B+ or above, and my dad flipped. I felt like he was so upset and dissapointed with me when he confronted me about it and asked if I needed any help. I called my friend and told her about it, and turned into a nervous wreck, sobbing my eyes out and all that stuff... over a B-. My dad came in the room and thought I was crying because of whatever my friend was saying over the phone, but the truth was that it was him.
By the end of the night he found out, though, that he was the one that got me so upset, and at the end of this year, I got the lowest grade I've ever gotten in my life - a D - in science.
And I could tell that he was upset, but I think he assumes that I'm too fragile now to deal with him asking me about it.
All of my friends except one is in a higher math class, and all of them except that same one were invited into Biology next year. Both of which I've cried over.
My mom will ask me to clean my room and I'll be thrown off balance.
I don't feel too good... could I have somone else's opinion? I'm kind of scared.. and nowadays I feel like my dog is the only one that doesn't expect me to change.
Am I really that different from most people?
I remember the beginning of the year when I got a B- in Pre-Algebra, and I hadn't gotten a B- in a very long time - it was always B+ or above, and my dad flipped. I felt like he was so upset and dissapointed with me when he confronted me about it and asked if I needed any help. I called my friend and told her about it, and turned into a nervous wreck, sobbing my eyes out and all that stuff... over a B-. My dad came in the room and thought I was crying because of whatever my friend was saying over the phone, but the truth was that it was him.
By the end of the night he found out, though, that he was the one that got me so upset, and at the end of this year, I got the lowest grade I've ever gotten in my life - a D - in science.
And I could tell that he was upset, but I think he assumes that I'm too fragile now to deal with him asking me about it.
All of my friends except one is in a higher math class, and all of them except that same one were invited into Biology next year. Both of which I've cried over.
My mom will ask me to clean my room and I'll be thrown off balance.
I don't feel too good... could I have somone else's opinion? I'm kind of scared.. and nowadays I feel like my dog is the only one that doesn't expect me to change.