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Post by Sparkle on Jul 22, 2006 5:37:30 GMT -5
About a month ago she was very suicidal, and kept coming into school telling us (me and two others) about how she was going to commit suicide, today was the day, we'd never see her again. Now, I felt absolutely shite, excuse the language, but here was my best friend OD'ing, 'practising' slitting her wrists for when the real thing came, and I couldn't do any thing to help. I was off my head with worry, and couldn't cope with it all. For her to SH every night then show it us, open the wounds in front of us... it was torture. My grades went down because of it, and I got into such big trouble from parents and teachers. Then, she got better. No more SH, she gained weight, she was her happy self. Now this week, it's all changed. She showed me a blade in her phone, took it out so I could see, she’s cut herself more and then showed us, and what really pissed me off was when I had a word with her, afterwards, she said 'this conversation had me determined to SH.' WTF? Friends are meant to talk, if stuff I say makes her want to Self Harm, how am I meant to talk to her? What am I meant to do? Not say any thing that may upset her? Just say what she wants to hear? I had to tell the Head of year… I was scared it would all start again. Another came with me… she was one of the ones that she’d shown, told every thing to, and she thought it was a good idea. Who got yelled at? Not her, no, she values her friendship too much. But me, cos she knows I love her too much to give up. But to be honest, I feel like giving up on her. I’m not happy. I have to go back to the psychiatrist when I thought it was all over. ‘Since I have spoken to Mrs Morris, I have found out she remains concerned about Charlotte’s well being. She explained that Charlotte had not received a good school report and was behind with her work. Charlotte has told her mother that she has a friend who is depressed and has been worried about her which has distracted her from her work. It seems Charlotte has not been eating as much and it is likely that she has been loosing weight.’ How dare they presume about me? I’ve been eating more, I’ve gained so much weight, and any one can see that. I’m fine, I haven’t got problems, I haven’t Self harmed for about a month now, I’m eating great, what makes them think I’m going to talk to a complete stranger about my problems? I can’t talk, I don’t want to talk. I’m not going to. They can’t make me. I will sit there and not say a thing. It’s complete and utter crap. Grrr….
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Post by WilD CherrY on Jul 22, 2006 5:42:16 GMT -5
Shit that would be soo friggin difficult, Why does she do that too you? Regardless I would be pissed! Yo shouldnt be treated like that when your trying to help!!
I think you should worry about yourself and get better for you because being around people who make you worse isnt going to help.
Sorry I suck at advice.
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Post by Sparkle on Jul 22, 2006 5:50:15 GMT -5
Wow you reply fast! Nah, you're not, reading over this it doesn't make that much sense so if any one is confused please ask cos I tyoed it in like... 10 minutes and I'm a slow ass typer. Wild Cherry- The thing is, as far a s I think, I am better. I'm eating fine- I have breakfast, about half my packed lunch, all my tea and a cooked supper, which is way more than I've ever eaten before. I'm also eating snacks, which is some thing I don't usualy do. And your advice doesnt suck. I dont thinmk I want to be her friend any more... but if she done any thing whilst I wan't I'd blame myself, And I can't cope with blame.
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Post by WilD CherrY on Jul 22, 2006 5:59:19 GMT -5
True i know you would feel really bad but your life matters right and you have to do whats good for you. You cant help it if someone doesnt take your advice you just know that you tried right.
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Post by WilD CherrY on Jul 22, 2006 6:40:12 GMT -5
k I suck sorry
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Post by Sparkle on Jul 25, 2006 4:32:42 GMT -5
Nah you don't. Thanks for the advice. _____________________________ Any one else got any thing to say on this matter? At all? *Puppy dog eyes*
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Post by Alcohol4ever on Jul 25, 2006 15:19:55 GMT -5
Well, you shouldn't give up on her, tell her exactly how you feel about her showing you her wounds. You need to tell her that she needs to stay strong to get through it. Ask her how she would feel if she were in your shoes and you were in her shoes, I know that this sounds mean, but you can't let her keep doing this to you. Your a great person, and I would hate seeing you upset. Also tell her about your marks.
Love always Alcohol4ever
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Post by Sparkle on Jul 25, 2006 15:23:41 GMT -5
Heh. Thanks for replying She knows about my marks... and my other friend who got really low because of her. OK- I can't blame it all on her, but her going on about how she was gonna commit suicide and me worrying berfore every test. Meh. I'll see how every thing is after holidays, then talk to her. Love you tooo....
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Post by Honey Beeswax on Jul 26, 2006 16:53:19 GMT -5
I wouldnt talk to her anymore but im mean like that
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Post by Alcohol4ever on Jul 26, 2006 18:33:15 GMT -5
HoneyBee your not mean. Well, as far as i know your not mean.
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