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Post by Stacey on Apr 1, 2006 18:41:25 GMT -5
Hello everybody, I am Stacey, I have OCD and I scatch myself. Scratching is how I SI. The problem is I dont know how to stop. I have tried many methods but I have to do them all 15 times each. Then I scratch 15 times in one spot. I tried having a bath because I like water but I have to turn it on and off 15 times before I can get in and out 15 times. its really hard to deal with. The only thing I don't do 15 times each is go to bed, write or talk or go to a place. Its really taken over my life and I feel like Im trapped. I wash each dish 15 times, check the locks 15 times, open and close the door 15 times before I can walk out it, when Im cleaning I have to rub each spot in 15 circles before I move on to a new spot etc............... Im very superstitious also. I can't control it at all. The doctors have me on medication but nothing they have tried has helped. I aslo have a nervous twitch in my left hand and foot so I try to avoid public so I don't get called a freak. Does anyone know what I'm talking about? I want my life back
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Post by Dregond [Gone] on Apr 1, 2006 18:52:48 GMT -5
*hugs you* it is a problem, it will take a lot of work to get it fixed, i have OCD to an extent .. i dont have a twitch yet, but i can feel it coming along...lol.aloot to study and so little time..*sigh* you need to relax and go to the doctor and solve this problem , but you too have to fight it ..each time you feel you have to do something 15 times..try hard to focus on something else...i know its gonna be hard but it will slowly go away, i sujest meditating and ganing better focusing skills.. your not a freak to us, not to me ... your a person
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Post by Stacey on Apr 1, 2006 18:59:18 GMT -5
I have been working with the doctors since I was 12 (Im 19 now). I can't try and not do it because I believe I'm doomed that something bad will happen if I don't do it 15 times. I've also worked with counsellers and therapists. They tried to hypnotise me when I was 17 to try and stop it. My mother is fed up with trying to "fix" me. I feel like and she also makes me feel like Im a burnden on her with medical bills. I pay as much as I can which is 1/3 of them. I just want to be normal like everyone else. I tried meditating and yoga but I had to meditate 15 times and do everything 15 times so trying to do anything at all is very stressful.
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Apr 1, 2006 22:28:13 GMT -5
wow that must suck! I dont really no what to say because I've never knowen anyone that had OCD. Hun you don't need to be "fix" theres nothing wrong with you its just the way you are. Your not a burden on your family soo please dont think that. It must be very stressful for you and you are NOT afreak at all theres lots of other people just like you *huggs*
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Post by pretzelofconfusion on Apr 6, 2006 17:48:30 GMT -5
im so sorry you have to go through all of that. it must be awful. im glad you are able to live with it so far, and im hoping you can find an effective source of help. its awful to have to go through that with everything you do, but there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you whatsoever. you are wonderful in my eyes and i praise you for seeking help. sorry im not much help with it right now but i know there are people on here who understand and have suggestions. hang in there, take care, and be safe! hugs, karlee
i wish you the best of luck!
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