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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 21:26:01 GMT -5
I was really depressed and cut a lot and attempted suicide, and then about a month ago I got help and haven't cut since then, and I got anti-depressant medication about a month ago too. For a while the anti-depressants made me kind of hyper and happy, even though the feeling of depression was never completely gone. But for about a week, I've been feeling the depression again. I'm still a lot better than I was but I just feel depressed and I want to cry a lot... *sigh* I don't know what happened to the happiness I felt for a few weeks but now I'm just not...
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Post by WilD CherrY on Jun 23, 2006 21:29:03 GMT -5
Did something happen before you got unhappy again? Anything at all that you can think of? Does yer doctor know that your not up and happy right now?
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Post by !Dances With Hamsters! on Jun 23, 2006 21:33:29 GMT -5
What anti-depressants did they put you on?
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 21:39:43 GMT -5
I'm on Fluoxitine, a form of Prozac. I really liked it but I still felt a little depressed. Now I feel really depressed, I want to cut but I would let down so many people who love me and I need to tell my boyfriend, but I don't want to worry him or anything... he hates seeing me like this and he cries because we are totally in love and he cares so much. I hate telling him things that worry him but I know I need to I'm in tears, I thought I could get past this depression but I don't know what to do anymore... I told my therapist that I still felt a little of the depression, but for the past few days I have felt it a lot stronger, especially today.
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 21:41:25 GMT -5
and I can't think of anything that has really changed to make me feel this way... it's the same stuff that was happening before.
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Post by !Dances With Hamsters! on Jun 23, 2006 21:45:20 GMT -5
Well, a side effect of all depression medication is Suicidal thoughts and emotional instabilitiy. If you are having those you should go see your doctor and get switched to another medication. I think its a good idea to tell your boyfriend because you care about him and he cares about you so he will be able to help you and make you feel better.
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Post by -‰KillerStyle‰- on Jun 23, 2006 21:49:48 GMT -5
I know how hard it can be to tell your boyfriend stuff like this or anyone for that matter but you will feel better after you do. You need to talk about it to let it out or its just going to build up and get worse for you.
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 21:50:48 GMT -5
Yeah, I'm going to tell him that I'm feeling depressed again when I talk to him later. He cares a lot so he would want to know.
And something just occured to me... they say anti-depressants take about 4 weeks to fully kick in, and it's been a month since I started it. So maybe it's starting to kick in and it makes me feel worse and I need a different kind. Do you guys think that could be it??
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Post by !Dances With Hamsters! on Jun 23, 2006 21:55:34 GMT -5
It could be it some take about 3 months to work fully sometimes 6 it all depends on what your doctor has told you. If your not feeling happy (like you said) you should see your doctor right away. With anti-depressants its sort of like trial and error.
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 22:00:52 GMT -5
I'm supposed to go for a check up at the doctor's so he can see how the medication is working. I guess I'll wait a little while until the check up and see if it gets any worse or anything... I want to cut, but I would let down a lot of people... I thought I was done with this depression, but I'm not and it feels so bad
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Post by stars2mind on Jun 23, 2006 22:02:09 GMT -5
yeah the best thing you could do is tlk to your doc...and figure it out- that way youll know for sure
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Post by Beautiful Disaster on Jun 23, 2006 22:04:56 GMT -5
If you feel like cutting DON'T CUT and go see your doctor. Screw the appointment don't wait, You said its been getting worse as the weeks gone on so you should see your doc ASAP.. please don't wait cuz it will get worse. Call him and say its not working I need to do something.
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 22:06:40 GMT -5
Okay, thank you everyone.... Damn depression... I hate this
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 22:08:19 GMT -5
Oops, sorry for saying that. Just feeling bad right now...
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Post by stars2mind on Jun 23, 2006 22:11:36 GMT -5
hey dont worry... as long as your not cutting its good..
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Post by dearblackgoodbye on Jun 23, 2006 22:26:20 GMT -5
I want to, but I know the reactions from people would make me feel worse
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Post by stars2mind on Jun 23, 2006 22:30:13 GMT -5
is there anything else that you could do that wouldnt be self harm
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